Nothing like getting thrown to the wolves, my first day on the job is going to be Black Friday!!!
I’m guessing that the crowds are going to be crazy, the people are going to be at wits end. I’m grateful to have the temp job but it would have been nice to have a few hours under my belt before Black Friday. I don’t have to work until the afternoon, so hopefully the crowds won’t be so uptight and harried. I’m working in the “kids” section so we will have to see how that goes as well. I can relate since I have two young kids myself. I’m hopeful that the people will give me an extra second or two while ringing them out. My biggest concern is going to be the register and all its nuances.
I’ll fill everyone in sometime Saturday letting you know how my Friday went.
This post may seem to hit people at the blue since I have always seemed so calm and reserved. It’s almost 4am as I sit and type this and I can’t sleep because of the mounting pressure I am under. You see, I have been putting up a facade for most of the past 18 months. I really don’t know where to turn and who to talk to.
For those that don’t know, I am a father of two and a husband. I’ve been basically unemployed for the past 18 months…I am a mortgage broker. I’m in debt over $40,000 and have begun to default on my credit card bills. For now, it’s only 1 card in arrears but after Dec it will be three. I can’t pay them and I am sick to my stomach because of it.
My family is using my wife’s income to pay for all the necessities of life but her paycheck barely covers those bills, leaving no room for anything else. I’ve been applying to jobs that I would have taken out of high school, jobs that pay a little above minimum wage and I still can’t get hired. The economy sucks and it’s easy to blame this person or that person but this is my reality. I am a good person who made one crappy decision 7 years ago. I should have stayed in the job I had and sucked it up.

Photo courtesy of Flickr user Kevin H.
I made the decision to change jobs after the birth of my first son. I wasn’t seeing much of him because I had to work 6 days a week. I worked almost 11 hours per day and I had missed many of “the firsts” things in his life. Missing these “firsts” made me want to change jobs. I was also swayed by the potential to make better money while working less hours. The reality is that I had to work nearly as many and I made 1/3 rd the pay for the first 2 years. No one, Realtors, small business owners, CPA’s, investment advisors, etc not a single referral source was going to refer me to a client when I had no experience in mortgages. That was the first sign of my struggles and I should have seen the writing on the wall. I didn’t and I wanted to be there for my son and family and make it work. Who could blame me???
Here I am 7 years later and about $25,000 less in savings, $40,000 in debt and no where to turn to. I’m about to explode although I actually feel a little better by writing about it. Thanks for allowing me to get this off my chest.
I hope things are sunnier where you are.
Pretty funny joke…
DEA officer stops at a ranch in Texas , and talks with an old rancher. He tells the rancher, “I need to inspect your ranch for illegally grown drugs.” The rancher says, “Okay , but do not go in that field over there,” as he points out the location.
The DEA officer verbally explodes saying, ” Mister, I have the authority of the Federal Government with me.” Reaching into his rear pants pocket, he removes his badge and proudly displays it to the rancher. ”See this badge? This badge means I am allowed to go wherever I wish…. On any land. No questions asked or answers given. Have I made myself clear? Do you understand? ”
The rancher nods politely, apologizes, and goes about his chores.
A short time later, the old rancher hears loud screams and sees the DEA officer running for his life chased by the rancher’s big Santa Gertrudis bull……
With every step the bull is gaining ground on the officer, and it seems likely that he’ll get gored before he reaches safety. The officer is clearly terrified. The rancher throws down his tools, runs to the fence and yells at the top of his lungs…..
” Your badge.. Show him your BADGE ! “
Today I took the youngest to school as always but we went an hour hour early to visit his book fair. No big deal but it took the ladies 20 minutes to figure out how to use the credit card/atm scanner and the line was backed up to Egypt!!!
Afterwards, I had to get the oil changed in the wife’s minivan, then on to Home Depot to see if they had any sod. I need sod because I don’t want to HOA to down my ass with a violation letter. While at Home Depot, I noticed a sale on some plants that I wanted to I bought 10 and spent $20 on them. I installed 8 and then the phone rang, it was my youngest son’s school calling. He ate something and then vomited. I needed to go and pick him up.
I don’t think he’s sick, I think he ate something that didn’t agree with him. He is allergic to numerous foods. He seems fine, I checked his temperature and he didn’t have a fever, his appetite is fine so….
On the job side of things, I am still waiting for Macy’s to call me back. I sat through a full day of orientation and they said they would call early this week. I checked online through their portal and found myself in the computer but there wasn’t a schedule made out for me. I’ll give them till about 4pm today and then call to see what’s up.
How are things in your world?




