What to pay and what I can’t pay

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I’m stuck in a dilemma…I have only so much money and more bills to pay then the money I have.  The easy one to decide is the power bill, I need power so it gets paid.  I can pay one or two little bills, like the home phone which has been temporarily suspended, I can keep my home number and pay a few dollars a month until I decide to have the phone hooked up again.

I like the idea of keeping my home number, I’ve had it over 10 years so it was a no brainer to get that service from the telephone company.

I’ve got to keep money for food for the family which means that one credit card doesn’t get paid on time this month but I am forced into this situation.  I truly hate it.  I wish the damn job market would open up so I could get a job that paid halfway decent.  Decent enough to pay all my bills on time.

I’ll just continue to look for employment and hope that jobs come about for everyone.  This shit is really starting to get to me though.  I sometimes lay awake at night wondering what my financial future holds for myself and my family…my kids and wife son’t deserve this shit.  If it were just me, I’d be ok with it.  I am here to provide for them and I can’t do it!!!  UGH!!!

Photo courtesy of fotopedia user Edgar Muller

I’m almost reserved to waiting for the new year to come, maybe that will offer a new beginning for us all.  Let’s all hope it does.  I was really hoping that the new president would have gotten us on better footing by now but it seems that he is just like the rest, he blew smoke up our asses.  It’s all smoke and mirrors.